Friday, December 29, 2006
yeah, No body is perfect, No One Is...We are Just Human After All...
Another DAY pass...HoLIDAY coming, and its Party Time...Anyway I wont be in Singapore during the Weekend, cause I’m Going To Malacca On Sunday, on the Day Of Hari Raya Haji...happy days ahead, gonnA Stay There at Century Mahkota for 2 Days, the good thing is that, Ida’s Whole Family coming along wif us, and I think It Wil double the Fun, ooh yeah, thought of Having Pizza Hut there...Or maybe. Dominos Pizza...it will be great.
And Now In the Office, doing some work, chatting and blogging at the same time, missing someone, I guess I’m Missing my ex, he’s out there somewhere, hope he’s ok
I’m ok here too...although I have
Still...I Remember Him, although he had a girlfriend and now being single again, no doubt he still in my memory...heheheh...life have to move on and leave the past behind, that’s what I’m doing now, leave my world of darkness for something good in the near future...
But I...
and sometimes
If Only...
I guess I’m trying to be happy...and being contented with what I have right now...And I believe that Happiness Will come to me Once Again, Ohh I am Happy right Now...I Just want to be More Happy With the Life I’m Having...
I be meeting a Friend later for awhile before I leave on Sunday...
Ok ok I stop here…..signing off….
attempted suicide at 3:36 pm
I aM A Naughty Girl.............Hehehe........
NOT.....
....hehehe....Just a................
Me There......In the Picture.......
Waiting for time to pass.......
I think I am......
ANd SomeTimes a.....
Hheheheh...................NAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm JUst Having Fun HEre.....
attempted suicide at 11:30 am
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
HARUSKAH KU MATI
Bagaimana mestinya
Membuatmu jatuh hati kepadaku
T'lah kutulis kan sejuta puisi
Meyakinkanmu membalas cintaku
Haruskah ku mati karena mu
Terkubur dalam kesedihan sepanjang waktu
Haruskah kurelakan hidupku
Hanya demi cinta yg mungkin bisa membunuh ku
Hentikan denyut nadi jantung ku
Tanpa kautau betapa suci hatiku
Untuk memiliki mu
Adakah keikhasan
Dalam palung jiwamu mengetukku
Ajarkan mu bahasa perasaan
Hingga hatimu tak lagi membeku
Haruskah ku mati karena mu
Terkubur dalam kesedihan sepanjang waktu
Haruskah kurelakan hidupku
Hanya demi cinta yg mungkin bisa membunuh ku
Hentikan denyut nadi jantung ku
Tanpa kau tau betapa suci hatiku
Untuk memiliki mu
Tiadakah ruang di hatimu untukku
Yang mungkin bisa 'tuk kusinggahi
Hanya sekedar penyejuk disaat ku layu
Ku t'lah menantimu hingga akhir masa
attempted suicide at 5:39 pm
it's a cool Tuesday Morning, and sekarang, me kat dalam office, just about to start doing some work for some clients, and about to go out for a walk to the bank and back, looks like a busy day for me, but, nah its not, I'm so relaxed now, with nothing to do, and maybe going out to the bank early, heard about a bad news, what eva happened had already happened and its time to move on in life, just like me, been moving on in life since i left everybody behind, and now me, my family and the future, for boyfriend....just leave it as it it...better to be single and happy and be happy, and if i happen to find someone while im happy being alone, so be it, its destiny and fate, accept wats gone, and what com coming in life.....ok lah, me going to bank of china now....update again later......
attempted suicide at 11:40 am
Friday, December 22, 2006
HAri Nie Hari 22nd December, sorry last few days tak update sebab mc, anyway, hari masok keje macam takde mood nak keje, sebab kita org ngah celebrate christmas pat sini, got gift exchange, got lucky draw, and then i got lots of gifts from my manager and the gift exchange thing, and my fwen, kasi me botol bacardi, ape lagik bedal ahh, sampai gatal my tekak sebab, i rarely drink , kalau drink pon, tak banyak, but this time i drink the whole botol, felt nothing seh, lain kali nak minum lagik ahh, dah jadik jahat aku nie, anyway, my gifts semua i lom bukak, entah ape kat dalam pun me dont know, loots like chocolate and stuff, but yet to be open yet
heheheh happy giler....
attempted suicide at 5:38 pm
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
back again here, now in the office, still doing nothing, i just wanna type here aje, takder keje lain aku, be calling my fren nie satu, dari tadik asyik tanye..."Bila U nak Call me??" haaiizz, nampaknya kesian jugak budak satu nie, asyik nak bual ngan me tapi tak dapat peluang, bagus nah ke aku nie? sampai ada orang sanggup tunggu nak bual ngan aku? hahaha...tak lah i feel like i'm just normal girl, normal as can be, anyway, dont worry my fren, i will call u, and we'll talk but now cannot lah, boss around, nanti dia bising, anyway kat luar stil hujan kat tanjong pagar nie, hhmmm sejok nak mampzzz seh, tapi takper liza tetap cool
attempted suicide at 12:21 pm
Since semalam hujan tak berhenti, sejook feeling, hehehehe sedap kalau ada oragn yang peluk me yang macam teddy bear nie, saper tak nak? heheheheh, action plak aku, anyway i always sleeps alone and got no problem with that, lainlah kalau aku dah kahwin, errm, cakap pasal kahwin, aku ngah carik jodoh nie, hehehe , dalam masa 2-3 tahun, insyallah aku mungkin akan berrumah tangga, tak leh cakpa kahwin, sebab kahwin ada banyak makna...tu for those dirty minded out there, haaiizzz....hehehehahaha.....
anyway now dah nak kul 10 pagi waktu Singapura, waktu lain aku tak tahu ahh, tak jaga timedorong, and now aku ngah kat office nie, tak buat ape ape, cuma ngah type this blog aje. memang aku hari hari tak banyak keje, mungkin nari aku nak masok irc lagik lah, mane tau leh kenal ngan ramai kawan, Aku terbaca aku nyer ex nye blog, looks like he's in dilemma, i know he is just an ex, tapi kesian kawan tu...haiizz...apa apa aku harapkan dia tabah, dan terus usaha memperbaiki diri, don't care abt how long its gonna take, just take ur time to change, no one can do it for him, but people around him must give him time more time to change, haaiizzz......my advice to him is To Never Give Up on Yourself, and Don't Make Others Give UP on u, Always try ur hardest for everything.. hope it helps, but if it doesn't, its ok. i don't mind giving advices to people if he doesn't want to listen, its his wish. stop thinking about that, my life itself not so perfect and aku akan cuba ubah diri aku, seperti macam Ex aku jugak, semua orang harus berubah, baik kan ape yang buruk, dan baiki lagi ape yang sudah baik bagi kita lah, heheheh dah jadi macam mak mak plak nagging pagi pagi gini, anyway its just my thought, to be for the better. yang penting hati kene lah iklas kalau nak memperbaiki diri, berani menerima kutukkan, critikkan dan hinaan org, kalau critikan tu baik harus lah di amik sebagai pengajaran untok masa yang mendatang,
aku rasa sudah cukup lah aku membebel kat sini, nanti lain kali kalau ada hal lagik aku nak citer, boleh lah aku bebel lagik......
PEace Out....
attempted suicide at 9:48 am
Monday, December 18, 2006
SUnday
hari Sunday, we went to the cemetry to visit my sister's grave, she died at a young age, at the aged 0f 9 and er death till now is still a question of how? and why?....only those who understand what's going in the family, they wil know what i'm trying to say, enough said, after visiting the grave, the whole family had our breakfast and Ang Mo Kio Central banquet, i had briyani rice, while the others had barbeque chicken wif rice, it was delicious though, later that evening, i met a friend, then we went to Lucky Plaza to just window shop, it was so tiring so after 3 hrs of walking, i went home, then at nite the whole family went to Yishun, to my other sister's house, we reached home around 11 pm, just in time to watch CSI:miami on AXN.
attempted suicide at 1:32 pm
Last Saturday I Go cycling pat East Coast, it was quite a cool day, very cooling, maklum lah aru abis hujan, and i didn't cycle cause i dont feel like doing it, so i just sat down there and watch people having thier picnic, building sand castles etc. then after that, we went to the opening of Courts at east area, the place is big and pack with people. then we change our mind and decide to go home instead, maybe i go COurts and Ikea When there's not many People Around.....
attempted suicide at 10:28 am
Thursday, December 14, 2006
The day is Thursday and it is so quiet in this office, hahahaha....senyap sunyi siol, takder org pon, ada cuma boss, manager and me, for my side of company and only 4 for TKY side...best...working in an auditing company nie, macam keje kat kubor, senyap dan sunyi, since so sunyi i on some music, currently ngah dengar lagu dari 911, ok jugak...miss those boys.....Lee, Jimmy and spike....and my all time fav song, the day we find love...gerek siol..hehehe anyway me here in the office didnt do anywork cause no work at all....and will update again shortly later...bye bye...........
attempted suicide at 1:03 pm
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Hey Hi, I'm back to blog in here again, just did last update yesterday, and i'm doing it now, i love it, i like it. so many things happen today, and everything related to work, nothing but work, then chat with the guys in AM, Msn Irc, alot....love them all, talk abt everything within the box, hehah..today maybe i drop by the Pasar Malam Near Hougang Mrt to see whats happening down there....later or maybe tomorrow i update again....got work to do...so BYE BYE
attempted suicide at 2:38 pm
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
HAri Ini Hari yang ke 365 days aku pass lesen kereta, maknanya...HARI NIE AKU DAH LEH BUKA AKU NYER TRIANGLE......NO MORE PROBATION........YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
can speed all i want, but jangan lah sampai kene tangkap kan...whakakakaka....so happy as i am....saper nak ikot aku gi rounding.....angkat tangan????? meh kita enjoy........YAhoooo.....freeee from everything......happy sak aku......hehehehe........eh eh tak leh type banyak sangat, boss ada....ok lah...me berambos dulu....nanti update again shortly......
attempted suicide at 9:31 am
Semalam??.....tak buat ape ape, cuma lepas balik keje aje, terus balik umah, then lepas tu lepak lah....bual ngan "kawanku" sambil tengok citer hikmah....tak abis abis...and now finally dah abis citer hikmah tuu...then gonna come hikmah 2....mak oi...dragging lagi lah citer dia.....boring siot.........maybe prefer to watch the first and last episode....no need to watch the whole season, waste of my dear time......today after work i be going to ang mo kio to see my baby....my dear baby.......hehehehehehe isnt she's cute
pandai tau dia baca magazine...... 
hehehe....cute kan?.....tu lah my darling......Marsya Nashmia
attempted suicide at 9:22 am
Monday, December 11, 2006
I change my skin again, cause the previous skin's wording when I blog is too cramped if I make it larger, now everything is fine....so I be using this till I'm tired of this skin and will change to a new skin, maybe... now I'm in the office, chatting with bunch of guys from anakmelayu, the only channel in Sg that rox maybe, but its getting bored and bored everyday, not much friends in there, might be getting rid of that website.
attempted suicide at 4:49 pm
Been so long since the last time I blog, cause I don’t know what to type. The next thing I know is I came to blogger main page and think, what or how should I start with?. Then one by one word by word that came out through my mind. I want to talk about my past days, but I guess it be too long to write and too messy to read.
So I just slowly type about what had happened yesterday at home, or outside. Yesterday was calm, but windy, then it rained. At first I thought, it would be better to stay at home, but then I have an invitation from someone, a relative of mine, inviting us to their house. Yeah, we had to be there, we got to go there, we reached there around evening time, after half an hour of driving from Hougang to Jurong West. We ate a lot, and before reaching home, we drop by my grandmother’s place.
So that’s about it, my weak and boring weekend, maybe I will find something interesting to do, so I wont feel damn bored. And now I’m stuck in the office doing some work for client, its not really that hard, and I know I have to be patience in work.
attempted suicide at 11:14 am
Monday, December 04, 2006
hari nie, server pat office crash abis...semua network takleh masok cuma internet aje yang boleh...nasib baik alhamdulilah, tak lah bosan sangat hidop aku kat office nie....harap harap semua berjalan dengan lancar sesudah server di ganti baru dengan adanya waranty 3 tahun...whkakakak.everythings gonna be fine i said...heheh so i wait.. and sementara tu i dengar lagu dulu
syiok sehh...
hehehehe
attempted suicide at 4:11 pm
Friday, December 01, 2006
Hari dah Hari jummat seh.....hahahah its the first of December....happy First Dec everybody.....year end is approaching, and i have not made my new year resolution yet....lots of things i want to obtain....Cars....cash....condo....all the C things...hehehe cita cita ku tinggi menggunung....i'm meeting a friend later for dinner....now adays it seems like i have lots and lots of friends....either to hang out wif ..or to watch movies or have dinner....ntah asal pon i tak tau.....and many already fall in love with me....haiiizzz too many guys..yet no one have prove to me that they really meant their words....i'm just waiting....and for N....will always be there for me....he too have not prove more to me that he really meant his word....and i'm still waiting also.....so i guess now is the waiting time... to wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait....untill i can't wait any longer......whakakakaka....k lor...i wanna wait now...i blogg again soon....
attempted suicide at 9:51 am
pandai tau dia baca magazine......
hehehe....cute kan?.....tu lah my darling......Marsya Nashmia