Its in the evening now....and its raining heavily here in shenton way......i really wanna go out and meet him....but he dont want to meet.....its ok.....up to him......but whatever it is......i will still be out....whether it rains or shine and whether he's around or not....i just wanna go out.....really bad....maybe have a stroll in the mall.....or may be just siting around by the bay......thinking abt life....no rain can stop me.....im so lonely......so lonely......i wish he could understand......but he never did.....I asked my self......One Day, If I disappear without a trace, would they still care? would he still care?......then thinking it.....i guess not....it will never be....my existance is not important...i knew it....but i still dont know what am i doing here?......what am i thinking of...? i never really know my self....i wish i know the answer........